Hanging On Another Day, Lord, Holding On To You

Broken ~ Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, Is there healing?
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

Took a Chance

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside
I'm feeling alive all over again

As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside
I'm feeling alive all over again...

~ Lifehouse, First Time

I Need Redecorating

Take, me, make me
All You want me to be
That's all I'm asking, all I'm asking

Welcome to this heart of mine
I've buried under prideful vines
Grown to hide the mess I've made
Inside of me
Come decorate, Lord
Open up the creaking door
And walk upon the dusty floor
Scrape away the guilty stains
Until no sin or shame remain
Spread Your love upon the walls
And occupy the empty halls
Until the man I am has faded
No more doors are barricaded

Come inside this heart of mine
It's not my own, make it home
Come and take this heart and make it
All Your own, welcome home

Take a seat, pull up a chair
Forgive me for the disrepair
And the souvenirs from floor to ceiling
Gathered on my search for meaning
Every closet's filled with clutter
Messes yet to be discovered
I'm overwhelmed, I understand
I can't make this place all that You can

I took this space that You placed in me
Redecorated in shades of greed
And I made sure every door stayed locked
Every window blocked, and still You knocked

Come inside this heart of mine
It's not my own, make it home
Come and take this heart and make it
All Your own, welcome home

Take me, make me
All You want me to be
That's all I'm asking, all I'm asking

~ Shaun Groves, Welcome Home

Sililoquy

He said it's crazy
How love stays with me
You know it hurts me
That I didn't figure it out before
And now it's too late for a soliloquy
It's way too late for dignity
It's time for apologies

~ Grace Potter and the Nocturnals

You'd Think

I’ve been true to you
Seems like speaking to me is the least that you could do

~ Artists, The Oakridge Boys

On the Brink

I think I'm on the brink of something large
Maybe like the breaking of a dawn
Or maybe like a match being lit
Or the sinking of a ship, letting go gives a better grip

I’m finding everything I’ll ever need
By giving up, gaining everything
Falling for You for eternity
Right here at Your feet, where I want to be
I am Yours
Forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever...

Foreverandever, etc ~ David Crowder Band

Behind the Song:
'Dying is a strange concept to live by. Yet that is what we are called to, forsaking life to gain it. A close friend of mine suggests we look at it as trading up – discarding our tiny self-centered story for a grander eternal one. A sinking ship is both a tragic and beautiful image when He is the ocean.' - David Crowder

Happy 20th to My Baby Girl!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

ALISA!

Self-destruction: Too Selfish, Too Unfair, & Way Weird

When we have children, we lose our right to self-destruct.

~ Ruth Bell Graham

(I think I heard this on a TV show tribute to Mrs. Graham. Please correct me if I'm wrong.)

There has been a time or two I've seriously thought of self-destructing, but always think of my daughter (and mother, siblings, nieces, and nephews). They could get along perfectly fine without me, but aside from a little initial sadness, dealing with death is just way too weird, especially under self-destructing circumstances. WAY weird and so unfair of me to lay that on them.

I think it was the George O'Malley character on "Grey's Anatomy" who said at the time of his father's death, "I have never lived in this world when he was not." (or something like that)
Way weird--I can vouch for that.

I Can't Always Say What I Really Want To Say, Sometimes I Let Others Do It For Me

I seriously thought about going insane. I concluded that since I would want to come out of it eventually, it would probably hurt more than help.

~ Natalie of "What I Really Want to Say Is"

She also asks.. if she reads blogs of people she doesn't know, does that make her a Cyberstalker? I say, no. I don't know Natalie, but found her blog by accident and really enjoy reading it. I don't in any way feel that I'm stalking. Blogging is what it is, and it's out there to be shared unless you use a format where you have to be invited to read and/or comment.